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Just... I've been having really weird dreams lately. It's like, ever since I went to Kristina's birthday party with David I've been having dreams about, well. About kissing him. D:

I DON'T WANT TO KISS HIM IRL. Honest.

Just, a lot of my dreams have been featuring him as the main male role. And it's just getting freaky and weird and I'm not liking it.

Uhm, fyi, people, David is my ex-boyfriend. We had a nasty break up and didn't hang out for about, half a year. And I just saw him and talked to him and chilled with him like, last week for the first time in ages.

And now, all of a sudden, he's just... like, in my subconscious mind, I guess. Which is weirding me out, as I've said before.

And EVEN WEIRDER, kay? I was hanging out with Allyson and she was talking about prom. So I kind of hinted to wanting to go, you know? And she just didn't say anything.

Like, normally, she'd have been like, "Come with us, it'll be so much fun!"

I don't know, I think she feels threatened by me because I used to be such good friends with David and Amanda. Like, if I went to prom with them I would steal all her thunder or something.

I don't know, maybe she just doesn't want to deal with Sean.

Or maybe she just didn't catch the hint?

Hm.

Anyhow, to the weird part - when I found out she was going with Amanda and that they were taking David, I got this really weird sad feeling. Because, in all honesty, all throughout high school I planned on going to prom with David. I just felt... weird about him going with someone else.

Maybe I'm being paranoid. I just don't want to end up liking him again, I got over him like a million years ago and I don't want to be jealous of Allyson and Amanda for getting to take him to prom. That was my fuck up. He's not my boyfriend anymore. I don't even like him like that anymore, I see him as a really good friend.

D:

It makes me sad that no one wants me at the prom. I guess it's my fault for flunking out and sucking so bad.

All I know is, I miss being friends with Amanda and David. When did Allyson swoop in and take them away from me?

Stupid high school.

I just want to sleep forever right now.

And BTW Amanda, please don't mention this to David or Allyson. D:

I'm really embarrassed by this as it is. <3